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droopy eyelids

i'm very very tired.from the bout of activities happening and soon to happen in the next few weeks.after bumming ard for the past 8months or so,am not exactly excited bout returning to school.returning to a new school in fact,to embark on another new journey.there'll be alot of new experiences and opportunities i'm sure,but am kindda tired of being busy.

so after the china trip,which was a pretty cool trip,ive been back at contact trngs.one and a half month's of absence was no joke,cause i returned to trngs in a blur and with a lack in stamina.yep there were tough times,shoutings and all,but am thankful for the guidance and trust and opportunities for the past 3 weeks.next week concludes my only month of trngs bfore WNRC15s officially starts.i'm worried,and not exactly all prepared for it.but the game has been enjoyable,though stressful,so far.and i really dont wanna let coach or mskoh down.friendlies with u14 boys the past 2 weeks have been good experiences:)just like mskoh said,ull really just wanna whack them after they take you down.cept for the fact that theyre sweaty and smelly ayeeee:P

matriculation last week left me with an information overload.we were spammed with activities,camps,cip,talks,registration,phototaking etcetc.evrything was thrown in all at once and i really did feel pretty overwhelmed.but i guess its all bout adapting;its like this tool,this skill that ull require in evry phase and aspect of your life.now that schools bout to start in a month's time,i really shld start adapting.despite the pretty hectic schedule,am thankful for being granted some free time to meet up with ole pals ive been missing for awhile.lunch and movie with annarine was good,so was lunch with anqi.am looking foward to lunches with the class girls,van,yip and lynette in the next few weeks:)

its been slightly more than 2 months after ahgong's death.they say,time heals all wounds.yet evrytime we visit the cemetry,evrytime we talk and think bout him,the wounds just seem to reappear.its been hard trying to accept his death,cause he was afterall very healthy and bubbly before.and it all happened too quick.too bad for cancer which weakened him,and that fateful fall.but his death did change things.i am now always thankful for my family.i pray for their health and well being.i try to value life more.it gets abit hard sometimes,when the mind drifts.but we're holding on strong,as a family:)i feel pretty much guilty and apologetic to quite alot of friends,whom ive not met up with in awhile.but priority now lies with the family and i reserve weekends and wkday nights for them.cept for trngs on some nights and saturdays,which lies second on the list cause of commitment.but i really hope we'll all still keep in contact,cause it gets kindda upsetting when people change and when am the only one whos taking the initiative to keep in contact.

ok thats it.my eyelids are drooping and am burnt from today's game.will hopefully slot in some time to update soon.out.

written on 2008-07-13 @ 9:23 p.m.

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