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this week hasnt been very smoothsailing.i slammed my own finger with a car door.i missed out on a very important call,which makes me very peeved.i almost collided with another car and almost hit another cyclist while driving.am aching from trngs.the sister is being highly annoying.and am just trying to find my way back into the game.

its always good to be back at something you like.but being back takes up alot of courage,confidence,determination and a million other positive traits all rolled into one.being back,means having to commit.being commited,means having to adapt.having adapted,means daring to lead.and being a leader,means picking yourself up no matter how much shit you face.

i find it most difficult having to adapt.maybe cause i'm to shy to ask,too embarrassed to falter,too scared to make a mistake,too worried bout exclaiming,'i dont know whats going on!'.i hate not being able to adapt.because it breaks down the chain and am finally left,a player who has no future nor goal.

i took in alot of shit today.maybe not alot,but alot for me on my second trng.i think i got confused too many times and the shoutings coming from left right centre made me feel guilty bout my insignificant contribution on the field.i think,i just need to ask,to communicate,to say 'i dont know!' if i really got no clue bout whats going on.but its okay,because i shall learn to adapt to the shoutings,the players and the game.

beach tmw with the team,perhaps a little positivity to the downs this week.i just dont wanna imagine how the body will ache in the morning:X

written on 2008-06-26 @ 12:18 a.m.

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